Should I stay or should I go?

Hello to the readers who have stuck around even when I don't blog! I will be posting a blog poll soon and I want you and your followers to vote so spread the word PLEASE and have them follow my blog .... I will need votes to help with some decisions and new followers of course.

I'm doing good so don't think I've lost my mind okay! I want to try an experiment and see how it's like to be "kinda homeless" and I say kinda because I have money and will be able to eat and I have a home.

I want to try living out of my car for three months. I'm crazy right LOL LOL I know it sounds weird but it's something I've been thinking about for years. I want to see what it's like to kinda feel like you don't have a home. Since I work for me now :) I will have the time to do it now. I will have to be creative and come up with things to do during the day aside from my business stuff. I will have my laptop of course which means I will definitely be blogging A LOT and I mean A LOT especially at night... LOL LOL..I have been researching places I can park at night. The funny thing is the one place I do not go to or like welcomes people to park overnight trailers etc.... Wanna guess where that is? Yep!!! Walmart :)

Ok, Here is the deal! I'm gonna do it. The plan is for end of May the first of June so that's a month out to get everything in order. I will do a series of poll questions I think the first one will have something to do with how long you think I would last. I don't even know the answer to that. The plan is to move around and not stay in the same place city etc.... I will take photos and post during my journey. I'm really psych about this! I'm trying to think positive I've been told that I won't last a week. I think I can at least do a week for sure, but if I don't last I will have a home to come back to.

During the experiment I will not visit my residence, shop for unnecessary things like "Juicy Couture, Prada etc......" It will be me and my laptop maybe I can catch up with friends I haven't spent much time with and throw in mini road trips to places. I will be showering at my gym 24hr Fitness I have an all club membership and I'm paid up for the year so I should get some good workouts in hey I will have plenty of time since there open 24hr so I will definitely have to know where they are all located. I will map out where I will be traveling based on 24hr gyms ^_^ Who know I could loose that 50lb I've been working on.

I need feedback on what you all think. Once I do it I will be relying on comments to keep me going. So current readers! What are your thoughts? Any questions?

I'm Back

My footprints in the sand at the beach in San Diego!

Career

I'm looking into changing careers. I know I have been with my company for almost a decade and I have enjoyed it. I am no longer happy at work and that is a sign to me that maybe I should consider moving on.

My job has nothing to do with what I went to college for. I'm not even interested in what I went to college for anymore. I am considering going back to school full-time or take a part-time job and work on my business more full time. This will be the year of change for me and I'm leaning more for the better and not the worst.

Relocation, relocation, relocation is also at the top of my list right now. I'm still trying to figure out where I'm going to live and if it will be in this state. I've got several options I just can't decide on anything right now. I'm being very picky right now on places and don't want to settle on anything.

Happy 2K10 Everyone!

Happy New Year Everyone! I have missed you all! I promise to work on blogging more this year and not slack off after Summer again.

The first three months of the year is true test for everyone regardless if you have a New Year resolutions or not. It pretty much gauges how your year is going to go. For me this year the first month is my true test. I have a lot of things going on. One being I'm in the process of relocating to a new place. I still have my fingers cross on if my Mother will be moving in with me or not. I will not know til mid January. if she relocates this will be the first time my Mother has lived outside the state she was born in. I will be moving at the end of January 2010 Woo Hoo!

I must say I'm pretty excited. I look forward to shopping ^_^ for my new place. This will be a new beginning. I already know what my house warming present will be. Can you say "Wii" *_* I have wanted one for the last year, but have not purchased it due to me having roommates and not wanting to pack it up everyday when I leave for work etc... After this week I hope to know a little more about where my future stands with work and possibility relocating out of state or it could be known by the end of the month Who knows? Things are always changing! Change is good I welcome it now. I love you all and let's have a good year!!!!!!!!!!

#1 Developer

Shared Theme Description

People who are especially talented in the Developer theme recognize and cultivate the potential in others. They spot the signs of each small improvement and derive satisfaction from these improvements.

Your Personalized Strengths Insights

By nature, you enjoy counseling friends when they turn to you for help, suggestions, opinions, or fresh perspectives. Usually you make discoveries and gain new insights each time you freely share your ideas, experiences, or feelings with your companions. Instinctively, you are naturally inclined to make sacrifices that benefit someone else. You enjoy being generous with your time, knowledge, skills, experiences, resources, or possessions. It's very likely that you have a gift for engaging people in group conversations. You also are an active participant. Your upbeat attitude energizes the dialogue. You acknowledge the ideas people share. You reinforce the value of what they say. Consequently, many people become even more willing to reveal their thoughts and feelings. Because of your strengths, you usually put aside what you want to do and even inconvenience yourself to serve others. People probably say you devote yourself to the welfare and interest of many individuals. You routinely put their needs ahead of your own. Chances are good that you routinely engage in group activities and projects. Often these benefit youth and small children.

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I'd have to say this 100% accurate

Strengths Finder

As I mentioned in a previous post my employer made it a requirement to read this book to find out our strengths and then to e-mail them our top 5 strengths. I will be posting my results. Initially I thought crap I have to read another book that was not my choice to read. As it turned out it wasn't bad like I imagined it. Once I took the quiz online and read the results I was amazed how much the results were correct. So here are my top 5 strengths:

Developer

Responsibility

Relator

Restorative

Empathy

I will post each one everyday this week with my results. This should give you a little more insight on who I am and I must admit it's accurate I never would have guessed it

Sunday Secret

A PostSecret card posted on http://www.postsecret.com/ today that I can relate to :)

Working out and back to work!

Today was a good day it started off at 5:30am with my new Personal Trainer. I really think it's a good fit aside from the nice eye candy. I started back working out this week so my sis and I will be working out at 5:00am on Tue and Thur weekly together our normal routine. I've slacked lately since I was sick, but I'm up and running again. I meet with the trainer again on Wed which means I don't get a break until Friday whew....

My first day back to work was good. I felt like I was slow , but I wasn't I was just anxious for some reason. It just seemed to good to be true that it went so smoothly. I was excited to see Bre that was good. I'm exhausted so this will be a short post. I hope everyone is doing well. Have a good evening everyone@^-^@

I'm Back!

Hello to all my blogger friends. I missed you all. Please disregard any spelling errors as my sight is not doing well at all. I still wanted to post and let you all know the No Tech really sucked. I've missed a lot and have some catching up to do. I had over 500 post I missed that I follow. Not to mention how much e-mail I'm going to have at work when I return and yes I haven't worked either. I miss Bre "Mauh" to you Bre ^_^ I did break the no texting or twitter rule that was a given. I will post more soon. My eyes can't handle any more at this point. So I will catch you all later.

No Technology!

Hello to my faithful followers! My system has been on overload lately. So I have decided that I will see how long I can go without technology. I'm on overload and really don't want to use it anymore. Although I will have to use the phone on occasions I will not use it for texting, twittering, internet, facebook or anything else. I need a break to filter all the negative things out of my life right now specifically the news, media, and internet. I'm feeling sick right now and the PMS isn't helping. The easy part will be no microwave he he I don't use them anyway or own one :) So this will be my last post for a while I hope. If it doesn't work and withdraws kick in badly I will return ASAP ^_^ Wish me luck!!! I will miss you all! If you knew my address you could mail me a letter, but I doubt you all have it :( Feel free to comment on how long you think I will last. It's like a diet or getting back into working out if you can make it past 3 weeks your good to go and the dependence or cravings are less or gone. Since the blog will be private and only approved followers will be able to comment I will open the comments so they don't need to be approved. So be good and nice! Any comments posted after this weekend I will read when I return to technology. Love you all!!!!!!! MAUH!!!!!!!

100th Post

I have not been doing well lately this would include both mentally and physically. As my regular readers have noticed I twitter more than I blog now. This may be the most annoying post you have read on my blog (or maybe not) I am going to post 100 random things that most likely won't flow or make sense. Just know it's all true. Sometimes you just need to release whats in your head. This will probably be the most you ever get out of me about me and my life/experiences. So buckle your seat belt and welcome to my world/brain for a moment.

1. I'm sick of people bullshit

2. My **** *** **** ** ***

3. I want to leave this fucking country

4. My brain/emotions have been triggered by Jaycee kidnapping since I was also kidnapped as a child.

5. Why can't people accept you and your decisions they don't live your life so why tell them what you think is best for them

6. I love skittles the red pack of course

7. I just bought a pair of Juicy Couture sunglasses $100+ of course

8. Lately I've been thinking about dying and yes that means killing myself, but don't worry it will not be a huge shocker shit happens right

9. I know who my true friends are and I'm questioning one of them in my mind

10. My mom needs to get her shit together and quit falling "in love" with pedophiles

11. No amount of money will make you happy giving it to others makes me happy

12. Cubicles suck ass (Unless you sit next to BreJ)

13. I hate rap and music with profanity (I know and I'm using a lot of it right now :) )

14. I can't stand nosey people who want to be in your business

15. Less than a week ago I helped change someone mind about being baptized It felt good

16. Needy people irritate the hell out of me

17. I love watching Big Brother with my Ex for some reason it makes both of us happy

18. I use to model for American Eagle

19. I'm fluent in sign language and sometimes I wish I was deaf

20. Panda pisses me off every week

21. I'm a sucker for red heads, but I'm scared of what my children would look like o_O

22. My back hurts so bad everyday and if I took the medications I'm suppose to I would be addicted

23. I have watched people die in front of me and in my arms(and no I was never in the military)

24. I do not believe in a burning Hell

25. I believe that people who are convicted of child abuse should get life in prison and if convicted of murdering a child they should get Death

26. I am truly a Geek if you haven't already noticed

27. I really want a rotary phone I like the way they ring

28. When I use to live alone and I only had one bathroom in the apartment I would lock the door so no one could use it (people nasty!!!)

29. I have never been to jail

30. I love target shooting, but I won't use a target that is an animal

31. I am a SRA/DID survivor

32. It's amazing how this stuff just flows out of my head it's kinda scary to think that I have experience so much shit in my short life

33. I'm unsure about Marriage

34. Lately Xanax has been my best friend , but I'm not addicted (not yet)

35. I really want to be on the Amazing Race

36. I am terrrrrified of roaches I wont even kill them I scream and sometimes cry

37. I miss being in Love

38. I don't wear makeup unless it's a special occasion

39. Holidays freak me out so I always go to a movie on them (long story)

40. I have a lot of patience for children, but I don't for adults

41. I love getting pedicures

42. Red is my favorite color , but I really like pink too

43. I believe you should only kiss someone's ass if it depends on your survival (meaning death)

44. I've never worked in a restaurant or fast food place

45. When I moved to this state I saved 1K a year and in 10years I had over 10k so I bought my mom a car

46. My lil brother is a selfish lil Prick

47. My moms side of the family are Assholes

48. I'm surprised I'm still alive

49. I'm starting to feel a little better getting this crap off my chest

50. Why is it when you are accused of doing something your close family members don't ask if you did it only associates or strangers ask........ hmmm very interesting.......

51. I really enjoy blogging, but the thoughts I've had this summer are too crazy/scary to share

52. If someone asks me a question I am honest and tell them what I think. So why do they get mad if your too honest? Why ask?

53. Damn this is going to be a long Post I know were past 50 so if you need to stop reading I'm ok with it I don't blame you one bit

54. I stand for truth and righteousness

55. I delight in service and good works

56. I would die for my family

57. I would sacrifice myself to help others regardless of the consequences

58. I really love crushed ice by itself or in drinks

59. I eat pretzels everyday

60. Here is one that will blow your mind... I was conceived while my father was serving a life sentence (very long story)

61. I want to be cremated

62. I'm a Big kid at heart

63. My next computer will be a MAC I'm done with Windows (I'm still going to play City of Heroes)

64. I really dislike peanut butter

65. I order my pizza with no sauce

66. I love to cook and I'm good at it

67. When I grow up I'm going to be Canadian

68. Traveling means freedom

69. I kinda question someone if they don't have a passport or care to get one it just seems odd to me

70. Take me as I am

71. I am a unique individual and sometimes wonder why

72. I hate sleeping I normally only get 3-4hrs a night

73. I love playing video games

74. I'm an artist and love to create things and I love anime

75. I totally dislike coffee, but I love the smell of it

76. I want to go skydiving, but I can never find anyone to do it with me I don't want to do it alone
77. I'm unsure if I ever want to get married

78. I really want a pet but I'm allergic to dogs and cats

79. I could work in the dark all day if I was given the opportunity

80. Where have I been? I just discovered Wingstop OMG they have the best fries and wings of course

81. When I'm in my car I sing like I'm a superstar

82. I know every last word to the Wayne's World and Ninja Turtle movies (and I drive BreJ nuts)

83. I wonder how many people will make it this far down my list Honestly I don't know that I would read all 100 unless I kinda know the person

84. I gag when people have really bad body odor and if I have to work or be around them I breath through my mouth all day (cough cough.... Brandon)

85. One day at a time and one hour at a time gets me through life

86. This week I was told I went "Loco" on my cubicle lol truth is I did (BreJ... ya)

87. I have a blackberry and I only use 10% of it's special features

88. I have a list of things I want to do before I die and it's almost complete

89. I want to meet the Dalai Lama

90. I do not like being micro managed nor do I get along with micro managers

91. You are probably thinking "What the Hell?" If so it's ok I don't mind

92. This is the first Friday in September 2009 and I'm still unsure why I'm still here among you all

93. Life is crazy, fun, boring, shocking, amazing, disappointing, and unpredictable

94. Why do bad things happen to good people?

95. Sometimes I'm a tease and I like it

96. I go to the movies at least twice a week (yeah, I know I'm a movie whore)

97. I do not like the taste of alcohol

98. I do not like the taste of chocolate but I like the way it feels in my mouth when it melts

99. I really like bacon

100. I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY @(*_*)@

Crabby

I am so crabby today. My morning started off a lil stressful then I got some hopeful news. I arrived to work late due to the meeting I had to attend. Once at work I had to wrap up the project that is due today. Needless to say yesterday I was pretty much done with it I just needed to do touch ups and the power went out in the whole building Ahhhhhhhhhhhh.............. So I had to start over I got an extension on it. I'm just racking my brain right now.

I have been working on it since I got here and Bre has been kind to do my priorities for the day. What would I do without her. Thanks chickity!! While working and completely focused Shorty comes over to bug me about the key to the video conference room Agh...he said he wanted me to give it to Bre and that I didn't need it anymore. I snapped gracefully (passively) It turned into me just throwing my hands up saying take the key I don't want to have anything to do with the video conference room anymore lol lol I kinda snapped at my boss I felt like he was half ass trying to take some of my job "duties away" so I said if I can't have a key I don't want to be responsible for helping others with the set up etc...

So he proceeded to say lets talk about this at my desk blah blah blah. So he says while **whining** I'm not trying to take your responsibilities away (blah blah blah is what I was saying in my head as he was talking.) He said he was sorry for coming across like he did at my desk and said you are the one who have been here the longest doing it so we will get you a key made by security when he returns, but in the meantime for me to give my key to Bre and I said fine. I have no problem with Bre having a key she sits next to me so I can get it anytime. The point was why take my key when two others in the office have a copy who don't need it so just take one of theirs not mine when I'm the one everyone know will have a key.

He also pointed out that I was short with him at my desk. I said I agree he said ok were good? I said yes were good. Sometimes Corporate America drives me crazy. I so try to bit my tongue most of the time but today I'm Crabby!!

I don't drink but I just may have to have one after work today ^_^ A nice glass of Merlot I can so taste it right now. O.K I feel better :)

This week(Updated)

This is one of those weeks I dread. This is a very stressful week. I'm in pain and I have to deal with appts/ctdates/pro liar/pt/therapy.

I started my day at 4:30am I went to the gym and had a productive workout but had to drag my ass there once there I still felt like crap until the adrenaline started kicking in, then I was on a roll. The down side is once the workout, showering, getting ready for work is over I have about an hour til the pain starts again. I wish I could have a prescription for adrenalin^_^ it seems to keep the pain away, anyway I made it to work I think between Bre and I we equal one person today. I have two appts today, one appt tomorrow, one appt Thur, and one on Friday.

Emotionally, I am a wreck right now. TG for prescriptions they take the edge off. I'm thinking I need a vacation I need a break from life right now. I do not look forward to meeting with the liar today, but it must be done. If he wants to talk about what I think, he will be very disappointed and probably mad. My primary support people are not here right now due to a death in the family so I'm on the skating rink alone at least that's how I feel. I will do my best not to freeze up and shut down today during the liar meeting. I normally don't blog about anything to personal unless it's on my private blog, but what the hell you only live once right?

Some of you reading this may be probably thinking what the F is she talking about. It's OK if you don't get it I just need to rant/ramble. I so need my mom right now. I'm on a very thin edge of glass creeping across trying not to fall through. She should be coming to live with me soon I hope as long as she doesn't change her mind. I need her just as much as she needs me right now. We both need each other emotionally and she needs me physically for her health etc...

Time is dragging ass right now. All I can do is take it one day at a time is all I can do @(*_*)@

PS.S Lets see how long it takes the liar to cancel the appt LOL

Updated:
Ha Ha the pro liar called and cancelled of course I knew it. The amout of money I've put into him is crazy. Any how his secretary said he will call me around 3pm and we will meet over the phone lol what a bunch of poop. That is like having a doctor or therapist call you and say hey I need to cancel and I will call you instead and we will talk about your pain or problems over the phone and oh yeah by the way I still have to charge you. What a joke! He's in for a rude awaking!!

OCD

Alright, I have some OCD issues. I've actually come a long way with them. Recently, It has come back with a vengeance. I won't go into a lot of details on all of them. There is one that has completely taken over me lately. I have tried and tried to overcome it, but nothing seems to work. I know this will sound crazy (^.^)

I can no longer enter a Wal-Mart. I believe if I do I will be contaminated and die. There are way too many people there I use to go to Wal-Mart and have always felt the germs on my skin while in there I swear whenever I've gone into one I've gotten sick now I know this may be in my head, but I believe it and that's all that matters. All I hear and see when I'm there is people coughing and sneezing I'm getting the chills just writing about it. I know this is an irrational fear but it has still taken over me. I have no problem going the rest of my life not entering a Wal-Mart.

Sometimes my sis and others want to go to Wal-Mart and I cannot get out of the car to go in This sucks!!!! I'm not sure I want to overcome it, but if I want to go "shopping" with others and they want to go to Wal-mart then I need too. It only affects my social life a little not much. I don't know this is probably something I should go work on in Therapy eh!

Junior Achievement

I received another certificate today! This one is from Junior Achievement. I know it's hard to read and I removed my name. This is what it says:

This certificate is awarded to

Pea

In recognition of outstanding contributions in 2008-2009

Thank you for providing the link between education

and future opportunities for our young people.

Your inspiration will help the youth of today

become the business leaders of tomorrow

This one is from JA I have been doing JA in a day for the last couple years and I enjoy it. For those who don't know what "JA in a day" is it's a program where employees of local businesses volunteer for one day to teach a class depending on the grade decides on the topic. The first time I taught 1st graders with another volunteer. The next year I went to the same school and taught 2nd graders and the great thing about that was I had most of the same kids from the 1st grade class and they remembered me and it was my birthday what a great present :). I taught that class by myself at first I was nervous, but after I was told by the 1st grade teacher from the year before that I would have some of the same children I wasn't nervous anymore because I felt like I knew them. It was a good day and the kids were like are we going to see you when were in the 3rd grade and I told them I didn't know but I would try. That's the beauty about children they don't forget people who have been a positive influence in their life. I look forward to doing it again before the year is out ^_^

Juicy

So I like Juicy Couture. OK, I love Juicy Couture.

I'm not a high maintenance person like some women when it comes to name brands. This is the only girly name brand thing I am somewhat addicted to he he.. During one of my recent shopping adventures I purchased some Juicy Couture of course. Today I am struggling with not going to the mall during lunch to by something else juicy ^_^ So I called to see if my sales woman was working and sadly she wasn't :( If she had been there today nothing would have held me back from going there to purchase something else that has been on my list. I only go purchase things when she is there because they work on commission and she is awesome and has always been willing to help. Sometimes you walk into stores where the employees work on commission and they may judge you right off the bat on whether you will buy something or can afford it. She was very welcoming and not judgemental. She is working tomorrow so lets see if I can resist going ^_^

Blame it on the laptop...

I had to be productive this weekend I got a lot done around the house along with cleaning and rearrange my whole bedroom and went shopping. It's my laptop fault if it hadn't got sick I would not had gone shopping ^_^ So I'm blaming it on my laptop! I purchased new bedding and some other things. It was a huge process I purchased one then I took it back because it didn't match my bedroom. Then I found the perfect one that matched this made me happy :)

These are photos of my new bedding the closer shot gives you an idea of what it really looks like along with the colors and the one from a distance the colors look off I think the flash was off. Isn't it Beautiful? I know the pic below is plain looking that was intentional I didn't want to reveal the whole room so this is what I came up with. It is a 22 piece set it came with three throw pillows I'm sure you can figure out which ones those are. I know it's not arranged that well I just put the pillows on so I could take a picture of it. As we all know the pillows always end up on the floor he he.. I was asked what size bed it was and if you all must know its a Queen size. Before I got this one I wanted a day bed so I could have more space in my room even though I have the master bedroom. I know a day bed is not for adults so I thought about it and for long term decided a Queen would be better although I think a King is too big unless I lived in a palace, which is where I really belong ^_^ There you go a little taste of my taste..

Death

Well I've had my share of deaths starting at an early age. I stop counting once it went pass 10 and I wasn't even a teenager yet. Most of you probably know I watched the Michael Jackson memorial. His death has effected me not because I was a huge fan or because he was famous, but because I'm sensitive to when people die even if I don't know them. I could also relate to him and his family on some things/issues. This is coming from someone who cries when the feed the children infomercials are playing and I just want to bring them all home with me.

I can relate on the level of losing a big brother as Janet Jackson did. I was also 11yrs like Paris Jackson when my big brother(who was 17) was murdered. I can remember it as if it was yesterday down to what occurred that whole day. We were far from famous but we had similar struggles growing up. Our situation was with our extended family and not the media. I've also had my fair share of media exposure (but that's another blog post). My extended family were very cruel to my small immediate family consisting of my Mom, two brothers, and myself. We were poor but rich at heart. Because we lived a simple, charitable, and humble life. My mom did not raise us to be greedy, money hungry, or materialistic. As I grew up I maintained the same attitude that I was raised with I can't say the same for my lil brother. The family had spreaded rumors about my big brother and no it did not involve any type of abuse. We were disowned by our entire family and treated like dirt up until the day my brother passed away(that's another blog post). It turned out to be a piss on you situation to them from us. My little family was know all over town/city to be good people especially my mom who had helped so many people.

After my brother death we found out that my brother was baptized a couple months before he was murdered. So we had the service at his church. The church was huge not only was every seat filled, but some had to stand for the service. Our extended family attended the funeral and keep asking who all these people were and how did they know us I just looked at them thinking "who are you should be the question?" It was beautiful to have everyone who know us be to there along with people who had never met us but were effected by our family in a positive way some how and wanted to share that time with us. As I watch the casket being driven it was like my brother funeral, but I was in the car behind the Hearst. I was glad to be watching on the outside this time. Sitting in the front row for this type of service is no fun. A month from today will be the anniversary of my brother death Aug 8th.

I took yesterday off to watch the memorial and had a scheduled appt for myself immediately afterwards to pamper myself at the Spa where I spent about 5hrs. I was so relaxed afterwards. Every now and then we all just need to be pampered :)

A Beautiful Sunday!

This is one of my favorite paintings and it's not because I like red ^_^ I attended service this morning and I'm never let down when I go. I always feel the spirit when I'm there it is my weekly spiritual food. I don't blog much about my beliefs, but I could not resist it this time. I discovered another association with my favorite number while listening to a message this morning. You may not be able to tell by my blog that I attend church regularly. I do and my faith does not dictate what I write and how I feel. However, it does have a lot to do with how I process important issues and choices in my life. We had a speaker talk about charity and the other one on debt this morning. I feel like I have mastered these two areas :) OK, maybe not since I'm not perfect. It was one of those situations where you want someone to ask a certain question so you could proudly raise your hand. It didn't happen so I wanted to scream out loud I HAVE NO DEBT, but I held back since it would be inappropriate in the middle of service. I'm no preachy person and I believe people have a right to choose there own faith or spiritual beliefs as long as it does not infringe or harm another. It was indeed a Beautiful Day !!!

Blogging

Lately, I've wanted to blog about so much but just haven't really posted much. I have four postings sitting in Edit post waiting to be released to the world, but I will not post them. Why? I don't know I'm just being weird I guess. I'm actually tired of everybody right now

I need a break

I need time off from work

I need to scream

I need a hug

I need hope

I need people to be honest

I need my mom

I need sleep

I need my brother

I need to loose weight

I need me back

I need more drugs for sleep

I need sex

I need a drink

I need to be free

I need to move

I need companionship