100th Post

I have not been doing well lately this would include both mentally and physically. As my regular readers have noticed I twitter more than I blog now. This may be the most annoying post you have read on my blog (or maybe not) I am going to post 100 random things that most likely won't flow or make sense. Just know it's all true. Sometimes you just need to release whats in your head. This will probably be the most you ever get out of me about me and my life/experiences. So buckle your seat belt and welcome to my world/brain for a moment.

1. I'm sick of people bullshit

2. My **** *** **** ** ***

3. I want to leave this fucking country

4. My brain/emotions have been triggered by Jaycee kidnapping since I was also kidnapped as a child.

5. Why can't people accept you and your decisions they don't live your life so why tell them what you think is best for them

6. I love skittles the red pack of course

7. I just bought a pair of Juicy Couture sunglasses $100+ of course

8. Lately I've been thinking about dying and yes that means killing myself, but don't worry it will not be a huge shocker shit happens right

9. I know who my true friends are and I'm questioning one of them in my mind

10. My mom needs to get her shit together and quit falling "in love" with pedophiles

11. No amount of money will make you happy giving it to others makes me happy

12. Cubicles suck ass (Unless you sit next to BreJ)

13. I hate rap and music with profanity (I know and I'm using a lot of it right now :) )

14. I can't stand nosey people who want to be in your business

15. Less than a week ago I helped change someone mind about being baptized It felt good

16. Needy people irritate the hell out of me

17. I love watching Big Brother with my Ex for some reason it makes both of us happy

18. I use to model for American Eagle

19. I'm fluent in sign language and sometimes I wish I was deaf

20. Panda pisses me off every week

21. I'm a sucker for red heads, but I'm scared of what my children would look like o_O

22. My back hurts so bad everyday and if I took the medications I'm suppose to I would be addicted

23. I have watched people die in front of me and in my arms(and no I was never in the military)

24. I do not believe in a burning Hell

25. I believe that people who are convicted of child abuse should get life in prison and if convicted of murdering a child they should get Death

26. I am truly a Geek if you haven't already noticed

27. I really want a rotary phone I like the way they ring

28. When I use to live alone and I only had one bathroom in the apartment I would lock the door so no one could use it (people nasty!!!)

29. I have never been to jail

30. I love target shooting, but I won't use a target that is an animal

31. I am a SRA/DID survivor

32. It's amazing how this stuff just flows out of my head it's kinda scary to think that I have experience so much shit in my short life

33. I'm unsure about Marriage

34. Lately Xanax has been my best friend , but I'm not addicted (not yet)

35. I really want to be on the Amazing Race

36. I am terrrrrified of roaches I wont even kill them I scream and sometimes cry

37. I miss being in Love

38. I don't wear makeup unless it's a special occasion

39. Holidays freak me out so I always go to a movie on them (long story)

40. I have a lot of patience for children, but I don't for adults

41. I love getting pedicures

42. Red is my favorite color , but I really like pink too

43. I believe you should only kiss someone's ass if it depends on your survival (meaning death)

44. I've never worked in a restaurant or fast food place

45. When I moved to this state I saved 1K a year and in 10years I had over 10k so I bought my mom a car

46. My lil brother is a selfish lil Prick

47. My moms side of the family are Assholes

48. I'm surprised I'm still alive

49. I'm starting to feel a little better getting this crap off my chest

50. Why is it when you are accused of doing something your close family members don't ask if you did it only associates or strangers ask........ hmmm very interesting.......

51. I really enjoy blogging, but the thoughts I've had this summer are too crazy/scary to share

52. If someone asks me a question I am honest and tell them what I think. So why do they get mad if your too honest? Why ask?

53. Damn this is going to be a long Post I know were past 50 so if you need to stop reading I'm ok with it I don't blame you one bit

54. I stand for truth and righteousness

55. I delight in service and good works

56. I would die for my family

57. I would sacrifice myself to help others regardless of the consequences

58. I really love crushed ice by itself or in drinks

59. I eat pretzels everyday

60. Here is one that will blow your mind... I was conceived while my father was serving a life sentence (very long story)

61. I want to be cremated

62. I'm a Big kid at heart

63. My next computer will be a MAC I'm done with Windows (I'm still going to play City of Heroes)

64. I really dislike peanut butter

65. I order my pizza with no sauce

66. I love to cook and I'm good at it

67. When I grow up I'm going to be Canadian

68. Traveling means freedom

69. I kinda question someone if they don't have a passport or care to get one it just seems odd to me

70. Take me as I am

71. I am a unique individual and sometimes wonder why

72. I hate sleeping I normally only get 3-4hrs a night

73. I love playing video games

74. I'm an artist and love to create things and I love anime

75. I totally dislike coffee, but I love the smell of it

76. I want to go skydiving, but I can never find anyone to do it with me I don't want to do it alone
77. I'm unsure if I ever want to get married

78. I really want a pet but I'm allergic to dogs and cats

79. I could work in the dark all day if I was given the opportunity

80. Where have I been? I just discovered Wingstop OMG they have the best fries and wings of course

81. When I'm in my car I sing like I'm a superstar

82. I know every last word to the Wayne's World and Ninja Turtle movies (and I drive BreJ nuts)

83. I wonder how many people will make it this far down my list Honestly I don't know that I would read all 100 unless I kinda know the person

84. I gag when people have really bad body odor and if I have to work or be around them I breath through my mouth all day (cough cough.... Brandon)

85. One day at a time and one hour at a time gets me through life

86. This week I was told I went "Loco" on my cubicle lol truth is I did (BreJ... ya)

87. I have a blackberry and I only use 10% of it's special features

88. I have a list of things I want to do before I die and it's almost complete

89. I want to meet the Dalai Lama

90. I do not like being micro managed nor do I get along with micro managers

91. You are probably thinking "What the Hell?" If so it's ok I don't mind

92. This is the first Friday in September 2009 and I'm still unsure why I'm still here among you all

93. Life is crazy, fun, boring, shocking, amazing, disappointing, and unpredictable

94. Why do bad things happen to good people?

95. Sometimes I'm a tease and I like it

96. I go to the movies at least twice a week (yeah, I know I'm a movie whore)

97. I do not like the taste of alcohol

98. I do not like the taste of chocolate but I like the way it feels in my mouth when it melts

99. I really like bacon

100. I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY @(*_*)@

Awake

So I joined Twitter this morning since I'm awake and can't sleep. I wasn't sure what else to do! I don't know how active I will be on it we will soon find out.

Quotes:

I've learned that people forget what you said, people forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel - Maya Angelou

25 Random Things

Here are 25 things that people don't really know about me. I wasn’t sure I would do this when I first read the tag. Here we go!

Rules:
Once you've been tagged, write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. Pass on to 25 of your friends.

1. I was born in Seoul, South Korea. At the age of ten, I migrated to the United States with my family. They lived in Staten Island, New York. I joined the middle school drama club in the 7th grade and performed in the musical My Fair Lady

2. When I was 6yr old I stop talking for two years

3. I attended high school at the prestigious Fiorello H. LaGuardia High School of Music & Art and Performing Arts, a public high school located in Manhattan

4. My father is American and meet my mother in South Korea

5. After graduation, I devoted myself full time to acting. I garnered several minor parts on MTV, in soap opera-style dramas on ABC, and on the off-Broadway stage

6. In 1996, a South Korean TV show filming in Manhattan called and persuaded me to return to my country of origin, to appear in the South Korean TV drama this was followed by two other roles

7. I love calamari I could eat it everyday if made properly as I enjoy cooking

8. Then in 1997 I was offered a script for her debut film, it was South Korea's first blockbuster film and became the highest grossing film in the history of Korean cinema in 1999

9. In 2006, Maxim named me on its annual List

10. I love anime it's truly an art that only certain people can appreciate

11. I appeared in Maxim again in 2007

12. The media attention was to much for me to handle so I began to get depressed and started having panic attacks due to me having stalkers and obsessed fans

13. I have one child who does not live with me he was giving up for adoption

14. In July 2003, signed a three-year contract with William Morris, an American agency representing Hollywood stars such as Halle Berry, Selma Hayek, and Kevin Spacey

15. In 2004 I was taping for a TV Series and had a panic attack on the set little did I know the attacks would become a daily thing. That is when I decided acting was not for me anymore

16. In 2005 I started with the company I work for now and I love it. No pressure and very relaxing. I still do modeling gigs on the side at times. I’m in the laying low status right now for my protection

17. I would like to live at sea one day

18. I enjoy traveling and must travel abroad at least once a year

19. I am currently working on a book about my life and how I ended up where I am

20. I have land and property in other States and countries but refuse to live in or on them due to my panic attacks

21. I don't like being in the sun. But, I love being outdoors

22. If you Google me you will get thousands of hits this use to freak me out, but now I'm okay with it

23. 23 has always been a lucky number for me and has never let me down

24. I do not know how much longer I will be living in the States

25. Last but not least the biggest fact of all is that Bre is an Awesome person and I hope to remain in contact with her no mater where I’m living ^_^