This week(Updated)

This is one of those weeks I dread. This is a very stressful week. I'm in pain and I have to deal with appts/ctdates/pro liar/pt/therapy.

I started my day at 4:30am I went to the gym and had a productive workout but had to drag my ass there once there I still felt like crap until the adrenaline started kicking in, then I was on a roll. The down side is once the workout, showering, getting ready for work is over I have about an hour til the pain starts again. I wish I could have a prescription for adrenalin^_^ it seems to keep the pain away, anyway I made it to work I think between Bre and I we equal one person today. I have two appts today, one appt tomorrow, one appt Thur, and one on Friday.

Emotionally, I am a wreck right now. TG for prescriptions they take the edge off. I'm thinking I need a vacation I need a break from life right now. I do not look forward to meeting with the liar today, but it must be done. If he wants to talk about what I think, he will be very disappointed and probably mad. My primary support people are not here right now due to a death in the family so I'm on the skating rink alone at least that's how I feel. I will do my best not to freeze up and shut down today during the liar meeting. I normally don't blog about anything to personal unless it's on my private blog, but what the hell you only live once right?

Some of you reading this may be probably thinking what the F is she talking about. It's OK if you don't get it I just need to rant/ramble. I so need my mom right now. I'm on a very thin edge of glass creeping across trying not to fall through. She should be coming to live with me soon I hope as long as she doesn't change her mind. I need her just as much as she needs me right now. We both need each other emotionally and she needs me physically for her health etc...

Time is dragging ass right now. All I can do is take it one day at a time is all I can do @(*_*)@

PS.S Lets see how long it takes the liar to cancel the appt LOL

Updated:
Ha Ha the pro liar called and cancelled of course I knew it. The amout of money I've put into him is crazy. Any how his secretary said he will call me around 3pm and we will meet over the phone lol what a bunch of poop. That is like having a doctor or therapist call you and say hey I need to cancel and I will call you instead and we will talk about your pain or problems over the phone and oh yeah by the way I still have to charge you. What a joke! He's in for a rude awaking!!

Pills and Movies

This week I was in so much pain. I have prescribed pain medication, but I normally don't take them because of how they make me feel. I tend to only use them on the weekend so my work performance isn't effected by them. I have a high pain tolerance and can normally handle the pain. Yesterday, Friday I could no longer handle it. I made it through the work day without taking it. So after I left work and completed my errands then I was headed to the movies I was half way there and decided I could no longer handle the pain so I figured I should take something for it otherwise I would not be comfortable at the movies especially sitting another 2hrs. I took one pain pill and one other pill to help my muscles relax. I've taken this combo before and felt some relief without any weird side effects.

I get to the theater and went straight to watch the movie The Ugly Truth and did not buy anything to eat I just had a drink that I carried in. I started feeling sleepy during the movie, but kept watching the movie I was in so much pain I cannot describe it I should not have went. The next thing you know I was watching a movie eating popcorn that was not the Ugly Truth, it was The Orphan and I was so out of it you would have thought I was drunk or had taken a lot of pills instead of just two pills (obviously I'm a light weight). I was eating popcorn with that nasty oil on it I never buy that stuff. I vaguely remember leaving the theater. I do remember getting into my car to drive home. Legally I probably should not had driven home I'm grateful I made it home safely without injuring anyone I'm so grateful. This will NEVER happen again. I do not remember driving home. I do remember struggling getting the door open once home. Once I was in I stumbled to my bed and passed out. I recalled these events once I woke up it's pretty cloudy.

I had 6 alarms set to help me get up daily when I know I have to get up. I apparently turned all 6 off. My sis called me at 7:10am this morning I just barley missed her 2nd call. I looked at the phone and then texted her "OMW" see I was suppose to meet her at 7am at the gym. I tried to move and was in sooooo much pain still. So I sucked it up and went to the gym. I probably should not had done that either. I worked out for three hours and the endorphins made me forget about the pain temporary. Once I left I wanted to walk in front of a car to put me out of my misery......... To Be Continue................................

Migraine

So I awoke in the middle of the night with a Migraine. Currently I'm in my idea of hell right now. I showed up to work as usual. The drugs have not kicked in yet. I need them to kick in before I got swim laps at lunch time today. Mind you I have a high pain tolerance so this is hell. Being that I was the only girl growing up I can tolerate a lot of pain (O^X) It's Friday so it should be a slow day. I had plan on looking for places I could transfer to with my job in other states or maybe in another country. Not going to happen until I can read in peace without making my pain worst. There is no rush I have time to do the research. If I do leave the state I will miss my Bre :(